I know she knows

Lilian can sense when things are about to change. Kids can do that even when you have said nothing about an upcoming event, let alone when you talk about an upcoming event almost daily, which is what we're doing. I know she knows this baby is coming soon. But really it's not the knowing that surprises me. She's a smart one. No, she senses that things are going to be very different and she's getting clingy. No more do I have this perfect set-up each day where we each get ready and I shower without question or eat breakfast in peace. Yes, folks, she has been that good! Now I have a sweet little three year old asking if I can play with her AT ALL TIMES. She's even gotten a little manipulative in her asking. I can hear her from her room say things like, "I don't want to be all alone!!!" Okay, that gets me right there. She knows how to get me! Even tonight as I'm tucking her in and cutting back on the amount of time I spend in her room each night, she gets me again with, "I don't want to be in here all alone!!" Mercy! It's as though I'm already being pulled two ways and little Mirah isn't even born yet! Oh the thrills we will encounter when she does arrive. Luckily I have a husband who will fill the gaps and pick up the slack where I cannot. For now, I just play with her a little more while half the time encouraging her to play alone a little every day. I don't want to create more clingy-ness, but I also want her to know that I'm here. So, the count down is about to commence. I have about 5 weeks left now and I am just praying that God holds our hands as we get closer to this new chapter of our lives. May he grant us the peace that passes all understanding. Especially for my little Lily. May peace settle over her like a warm blanket. "Oh, how I love you so much" my big girl!